Thursday, May 20, 2010
HAVING A BAD DAY CHIEF?
I started this morning off in a good mood. I was having a great day. I didn't sleep very well but still overall it wasn't bad. Then I was insulted AGAIN about my stupid wing sauce.
Once again my husband went to wing night last night. Once again I made the sauce. But this time he finished 10th out of 16. I didn't think that was so bad. After all it's only the second time I have ever made my own sauce. Apparently that wasn't good enough because I got a right slap in the face by one of the guys who was there. He told me I shouldn't make my husband's wing sauce. I explained that my husband doesn't know how to cook and doesn't know what he's doing (in the kitchen) lol! At this point he replies rather sharply "Neither do you" and laughs in a forced and short sort of manner.
It wasn't so much the obvious insult that bothered me it was the TONE in which it was delivered. From the moment I saw him I knew he was in a bad mood. I understood that, was gracious, kept conversation brief and didn't force his confidence. I was being sensible of his current state. For my trouble, he lashed out at me. Why? I don't know but he did, and it hurt.
At this point I was pissed. I responded "Well, we did better than last time and we didn't come last.". I managed to smile and keep my cool but when I got home that was another story entirely.
I understand we all have bad days and sometimes we direct our anger at the wrong person. My husband can testify that he has been victim to some of 'moods'. The only redemption I am afforded is that I do recognize my error and apologize. I also make every effort to control my tongue. It's not fair for my loved ones to suffer because I am suffering. So usually I segregate myself and avoid conversation to spare people's feelings.
So now a day that was once 'not so bad' has been changed by one person's careless remark. Normally I would either bottle this up, stuff it with food or turn into a pressure cooker and let the anger build. But not today. Today I am just going to FEEL and remember that tomorrow is another day full of potential. And if that doesn't work I am hitting the beach and I will tan my sorrows away.
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