JUST KEEP ON SWIMMING!

I am at a crossroads in on my path towards better health. Last week I committed to tracking my food and exercising everyday but to be completely honest with myself I have not been on the ball most of the time. I have not been tracking my calories as acurately as I should have AND I have not walked to school everyday so I can't really say I have 100% kept to my word. I must also confess that I have been scale jumping.

I have been weighing myself everyday (shame) and I have been losing weight so I thought 'no harm done'. Well that theory blew up in my face this morning when I got on the scale and saw that I have only lost .6 - that's point six pounds this week. I have been super concious of what I eat and when I eat it. I have cut out snacking at night which was very difficult and I was especially good yesterday because I knew today was the 'official' weigh in day and I wanted to see some BIG numbers. Needless to say I felt discouraged.

Now I have to take a bit of my own advice. A friend of mine is facing the same uphill battle and I told her 'don't pay attention to the number on the scale'. This journey is about making changes. I may not see the results on the scales but I feel the results on the inside. I feel like I am taking control of my life and my lifestyle just by not letting my emotions control my eating. I am making choices that honour my spirit and my body which is what this journey is about for me. This wasn't supposed to be about the numbers - it was about healthy living but again I have put the emphasis on the outside rather than the inside.

So I am vowing again to myself to continue on the path towards healthy living. I will continue to make better food choices, exercise more and don't let my emotions dictate the decision of when to eat. It really is difficult to change an attitude that has been engrained in my psyche for 30 years and I can't expect this to be undone in 3 short weeks. Everyday I am making progress and for that I have to give myself credit. I can't continually point out my shortfalls without recognizing the accomplishments or I will never find the strength to continue on this journey.

So to the scales I say 'goodbye for now'. I am putting them in storage and I will only weigh myself once a month. I will continue to find ways to exercise everyday even if it is dancing in the living room with the kids, and I will continue to make healthy choices by being aware of my emotions and not letting them lead me to the fridge.