GETTING MY WINGS CLIPPED

When I first started today's blog I was orignally going to talk about looking after my friend's toddler last night and how much I enjoyed it - and the sun would shine and birds would sing and unicorns would run through open fields and we'd all celebrate being alive....but not any more.

Something happened the other night that I can't get past and it is compelling me to eat sweets (although I am not at the moment). Here's the scoop. I had prepared wing sauce for my husband's wing night with the boys on Wednesday. Granted I had never done it and I didn't have much to work with in the house so I guess it came out more like spaghetti sauce:( Part of the event is that the sauces are judged and my husband and I came dead last. All the boys have said it's no big deal but I received a phone call last night asking if I had any spaghetti and meatballs available. I know ...hahahah...very funny but to be honest it hurt. I was offered some 'lessons' on making sauce which I will take but still my pride is hurt and today I am licking my wounds.

To be honest my first reaction was 'fine if they don't like it I'll never make them wing sauce again!' Pretty childish in retrospect. Now I am going to find the positive in all these childish hurt feelings and move on. Instead I am looking at other wing recipes and I have vowed to try again. I am also going to take advantage of those lessons and make a kick ass wing sauce and win the next time.

Regardless if my reaction was because I am 'too sensitive' i also have to tell myself 'so what'. What if I am over sensitive? Do I need to punish myself for it? No - it is what it is and eating food because I am hurt is just another way of punishing myself. So as I have my celery snack I say this...

Sometimes I just need to say it to the universe and find my inner strength to move past these things. In the past I would have let this eat at me for days and as a result I would have EATEN for days over it. I don't know why I am so sensitive and I dont' know if I will ever change but I do know that I have to find a way of dealing with the emotions rather than eating them.

Now excuse me while I drink my tea and think happy thoughts...enjoy the day and thanks for listening...